Ramblings

I'm sick and tired off everything, school sucks, things at home suck, i have doubts about everything in my life now, unsure of the fact that i might even still be breathing at the breaking of the dawn tomorrow. 3 more months and i would be out of this hell-hole, i  have no idea what to do next, or even what i want. I also know what i don't want but am unsure of how to avoid these same things. Sigh* I lack self confidence and its dragging me slowly, i need a boost (anything) to get out of this state because i don't want to remain stagnant.
Being unsure of anything kills and its amazing because we are unsure of everything in dis darn life, everyone expects too much from me, i really don't know how much i can give, how much faith i could actually have, how much i could persevere, how much I'm allowed to want, how much i could actually get, or even how to stop this ranting> All i know is i don't want to die slowly inside or have regrets for never being good enough or never trying hard enough.
Everybody claims to have a complicated life i wont say my life is, (Just cause i don't want to sound a bit cliché) but im evolving to a perfectionist and its getting harder to handle since im quite the
psycho- analyst. i feel nauseous every time, outward health, Internal sickness.