Thoughts

I Woke up feeling like i had the weight of the world on my shoulders

That seemingly depressed feeling 

Looking at the mirror and feeling so pathetic

You haven't lived up to expectation lately

Flunking all your tests and Exams 

Your parents Scolding you every little second they get about you not being good enough

You never seem to do anything right, It gets worse by the second

Ive been in every state of depression except the stage where i could hurt my self ( I love me to much)

I believe Thoughts on paper is Therapeutic

but how much therapy could i really get

I ve even come to understand why people take Hard drugs and ruin their lives 

Its not like i havent thought of it, For me to have come to a basic understanding

It surely means i had already prepared self justification in case i decided to venture into it

Life is a Bitch*- a term i think is highly underrated, but then again there's not much you can do

Then there comes Love.. sigh*

The one thing that is supposed to make everything better

Speaking of self justification, it drives in now when

The Person i love most in the world

Doesn't  love me back!!!!

I Get to see him everyday with someone else

It hurts like hell , sometimes i just wish i could scream 

Or cry my eyes out and it would make it all better

How can i cope in this cruel world without love

I cant even get someone like him to love me back , its pathetic

Life was supposed to be easy

As a child i always thought everything would fall into place at the right time

I would have no worries, or fears , or doubts 

But this bitch called life never makes anything easy for you 

Fake friends and Cold relations 

My life is far from perfect

But i have learned to take one day at a time

Make my imperfect life work

Stop complaining, and stop thinking about doing hard drugs

Because in the end i still have faith that Something would change .