TOO FAR GONE
I started off writing a song this night (you know trying to force out the inner Adele), well i couldn't find her so i decided to study instead, got bored and well the long and short of that is that am here now,because i couldn't stop scribbling rubbish notes down, what was the point of deceiving the world. This is the alleged free time of my life , the time am supposed to be having the time of my life, but................................
Its Friday everyone's probably hanging out or doing some random shit and im here , haven't been outside my house in a week , frankly i don't even know how im going to get married if i continue like this, the days are pretty much the same, wake up , do something, watch something, eat something, listen to something, tweet something and more gibberish, But recently iv decided not to let my blackberry get the better of me.
The bitter truth is am too far gone, from everything ................................
Too far gone from God, most especially and i drown in guilt as the days go by, because i know i haven't been a good child to him ,living in fear of when he might actually punish me for all my wrongdoings, as a lovely friend of mine once said ,we are never truly scared of death just unready.
Too far gone from my friends, my so called *bestie* as abandoned me , well shit happens so i guess i can deal ...............
Too far gone from me, i dont have time for myself, too much time but not enough time, too much sleep but not enough sleep, too many insecurities , but just enough to make me stay on edge.
So its been a continuous struggle , i didn't want to abandon you for too long so i decided to wet ink here, nothing much to say,so im going to remain nerved and drift away now, I suggest you pray for me if you can .....................................................
XOXO
Its Friday everyone's probably hanging out or doing some random shit and im here , haven't been outside my house in a week , frankly i don't even know how im going to get married if i continue like this, the days are pretty much the same, wake up , do something, watch something, eat something, listen to something, tweet something and more gibberish, But recently iv decided not to let my blackberry get the better of me.
The bitter truth is am too far gone, from everything ................................
Too far gone from God, most especially and i drown in guilt as the days go by, because i know i haven't been a good child to him ,living in fear of when he might actually punish me for all my wrongdoings, as a lovely friend of mine once said ,we are never truly scared of death just unready.
Too far gone from my friends, my so called *bestie* as abandoned me , well shit happens so i guess i can deal ...............
Too far gone from me, i dont have time for myself, too much time but not enough time, too much sleep but not enough sleep, too many insecurities , but just enough to make me stay on edge.
So its been a continuous struggle , i didn't want to abandon you for too long so i decided to wet ink here, nothing much to say,so im going to remain nerved and drift away now, I suggest you pray for me if you can .....................................................
XOXO
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