WAKE UP CALL

I Just had a wake up call, Literally
I have been relishing in dreamland for way too long,
Now matter how hard i try to deny it , Life has gotten pretty serious.
It would all change in a matter of days, i would be exposed to constant scrutiny everywhere i go
The constant pressure to do something good with your life,
The constant pressure to get married and leave the alleged fake fairy tale behind
Everything is becoming to real, and Real is SCARY
The fear of not wanting to fail or let people down
The fear of not loosing the best thing that could have ever happened to you
The fear of walking into a room and being a nobody..........................
My parents seem to have my life all planned out
The constant pressure to get every possible degree and a family before i clock 26
That is supposed to be the ultimate life, i don't even know what i want so i cant contradict
Because no one really knows what lies ahead and
The mystery of not knowing makes reality even harder
Be it Pessimism, Scepticism or Negativism , i don't care to choose or choose to care.
All i want to do is be happy , but what if i choose what i think would make me the happiest and wont be able to live with myself after a while
What if true happiness is a Myth
What if it only exists in movies and ironically movies only last 2 hours
I only pray i don't have any regrets, Regrets of not living
Regrets of pursuing what i thought was happiness , only to find that such doesn't exist
The lenght of this road holds no anwsers
But its a journey i have to embark on....................................